per·se·vere [pur-suh-veer] v. 1. to persist in anything undertaken; maintain a purpose in spite of difficulty, obstacles, or discouragement; continue steadfastly.
Yesterday I decided to work on Job applications and figure out my portfolio. However, it only caused me to freak out because as I was looking at job availabilities in Peoria I saw that there aren't any real job openings for middle school English. I was freaking out- have I waited too long? Is the window of opportunity gone? I have no idea what I'm doing, and everyone whose advice I ask for always gives me some answer that causes me to freak out. "Apply everywhere" "Get your name out there" "Just wait." SO MANY OPINIONS, so much advice.
The "man" is now my "boyfriend" and I know that God is using Him in big ways in my life: he has such a gentle perspective about God, and I'm learning about new sides of God that I wouldn't have if he would not be in my life: God is a gentle God who wants to fulfill our desires, not fight against them. WOW. And to think that I hadn't operated under that knowledge for so long!! Praise be to God!!
So, he told me this image:
"Be still and know that I am God..." Psalm 46:10
God has what I want in His hands, and he is holding it out over a cliff: He might drop it, He might not. But, He has it in His hands!
Then this morning something amazing happened. Today's Utmost for His Highest talked about "Spiritual Perseverene" and it's like when we persevere it's completely denying that the enemy will overpower and knowing that love, joy, peace, justice, etc. (Everything that God is) will eventually be fulfilled "Refusing to believe that our hero is going to be conquered"! But Spiritual perseverence is working hard knowing that in the end: God's will WILL BE DONE! He will never be defeated!!
"If our hopes seem to be experiencing disappointment right now, it simply means that they are being purified. Every hope or dream of the human mind will be fulfilled if it is noble and of God. But one of the greatest stresses in life is the stress of waiting for God. He brings fulfillment, 'because you have kept My Command to ersevere...' (Rev.3:10)."
Spiritual perseverence: Be still- God's will is going to be complete. His will is also to make His love complete in me, and right now he is making me sit in a place of waiting to hear back from this job offer and to apply to jobs that are available and in accordance with what God is placing on my heart to do.
I love you and your steadfast Love, O Lord! Create in me a pure heart!! Renew a steadfast spirit within me to spiritually persevere!!!!
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